... this is just... hmmm... i don't know...
Closer

Closer...
A little nearer every night...
Closer...
The end it seems it is in sight...
Closer...
They do not realize that it might...
Closer...
Be the last thing in this fight...
Closer...
The blood it surges through my brain...
Closer...
Driving through the former pain...
Closer...
Bursting through the older stain...
Closer...
Hearing footsteps in the rain...
Closer...
It doesn't matter any more...
Closer...
That something knocking at my door...
Closer...
With every moment on the shore...
Closer...
I start to feel it at my core...
Closer...
What the fuck is going wrong?
Closer...
I cannot take this toll the gong...
Closer...
I'm not saying I'm not strong...
Closer...
Lets see you walk for this long...
Closer...
Judgement comes and judgement knows...
Closer...
Holding truth just so damn close...
Closer...
Wrapped in lies but still it goes...
Closer...
Along the path it knew you chose...
Closer...
In the end when all is gone...
Closer...
And you think that you've not done wrong...
Closer...
When you see what you have done...
Closer...
Your flesh burns for so damn long...
Closer...
Eturnal days eturnal nights...
Closer...
Eturnal struggle eturnal fights...
Closer...
Eturnal dark eturnal lights...
Closer...
Eturnal pain from eturnl knights...
Closer...
Do you want to feel my wrath...
Closer...
Watch your step soon it'll be last...
Closer...
Know the things that you have cast...
Closer...
It's time for you to see your path...

Memories

Livin' in the dark, I guess I'm stuck inside my head
tryin' to see things that happened, gettin' no where instead
the future to you, is like the past is to me
it's in the dark, but at the park, get your future for fee
I don't know if you know, I don't care if you say
I don't remember the shit, that didn't happen today
maybe you think, like I remember what was
but imma tell you right now, 'n' imma tell you because
look at this shit, imma tell you right now
the things that I know, are the things that were 'wow'
I don't remember what was, I don't know if you care
why I tell you this shit, guess so you can beware
that the morning it comes, and the morning it brings
another new beginning, another time with no strings
got nothin' from yesterday, got much the now
so remember when walkin', and if you say ciao
in the morrow I won't know, in the morrow it's gone
come in sit in the darkness, where the light is not shawn
imma tell you right now, imma tell you straight up
that the morrow there's nothin', so why not just shut up
I don't give a damn, bout the time that once was
'cause its not anymore, at least to me just because
I don't remember a damn thing, at least that was then
you wanna play games, and you wanna preten'
but I think that you don't know, what the fuck is at ends
maybe when you come lookin', come to make amends
I won't remember what happened, or that you were my friend
raise my hands when I sit down, clear my mind to ascend
you don't know what I'm sayin', and don't hear what I said
so I try to talk louder, but get quiet instead
'cause it really don't matter, not one damn little bit
and if you think that it does, then you're just full of shit
'cause like really guess what's wrong, tell me what do you see
when I ask you what's now gone, and you speak plain to me
do I really remember, is there something? could be
when I try to think back then, but it's too dark to see
and you try to understand, what the hell has gone wrong
and you ask and you question, and the answers aren't long
'cause I don't remember, I don't know what has been
if you think like I should know, I was there - should have seen
guess I did - but it's gone, just like everythin' else
there no tape I can grab, no one put on the shelf
maybe one day I'll have, some flash back of some kind
get a memory or somethin', some shit flashed from some time
but then when it happens, what then can I think
am I just imaginin', or is this really a thing
I guess I just won't know, but at least should I care?
or just embrace it, and the fact that it's there
should it matter right now? should I even give a damn?
what the fuck, like who cares, at least it's somethin', but DAMN!

Written to the beat from Eminem's 'the real slim shady'

sometimes when i think... i know... i know i do
but then when i can try... i don't... know what to do
but sometime after that... i try... to rebecome
what i just could not be... and why... i guess just 'cause
i really just don't know... what was... what is right now
maybe i just should go... but where... i do not know
and if you think you do... then tell... me what to do
'cause i am still right here... right where... i cannot see
but if you think you can... then try... to be my friend
i don't really know why... maybe... i guess i should
or maybe i should stay... right here... right in this place
i don't know what would change... not now... been so long here
i really do not find... the an-swers are so clear
the world it fell apart... or no... wait yeah that's wrong

you know i'm here
don't try to hide
the things you fear
come from inside
the world is full
of brand new life
the times we knew
that were sublime
so imma try to
make this thing
come from within
make a new rhyme
but i don't really
have the time
so what the fuck
can't hear the chime

so come and take my hand... i know... i know you could
don't try to pretend... the things... that never were
were somewhere in the dark... trying... to first occur
and if you think you know... you don't... so don't pretend
just because somewhere near... you might... find at the end
a rope that seems to say... finish... the line is close
the race it is not won... don't try... don't try like most
for some reason you don't... think that... you have a chance
the world is full of 'love'... but no... but no romance
and if you understood... then why... it seem like this

you know i'm here
don't try to hide
the things you fear
come from inside
the world is full
of brand new life
the times we knew
that were sublime
so imma try to
make this thing
come from within
make a new rhyme
but i don't really
have the time
so what the fuck
can't hear the chime

so don't act like you know... you don't... you can't see this
i do not think you can... you can't... i know you can't
so why not just pretend... like most... like they all do
to say that they still know... still know... just what to do
you know i sometimes think... that things.. they end like this
but nothing really does... but can... still fall from bliss
there's nothing left to say... bout this... at least not now
but maybe if there was... then i... would spew that how
the world has come to find... the end... end of each day
when the sun goes for sleep... 'n' night... comes out to play...

you know i'm here
don't try to hide
the things you fear
come from inside
the world is full
of brand new life
the times we knew
that were sublime
so imma try to
make this thing
come from within
make a new rhyme
but i don't really
have the time
so what the fuck
can't hear the chime

you know i'm here
don't try to hide
the things you fear
come from inside
the world is full
of brand new life
the times we knew
that were sublime
so imma try to
make this thing
come from within
make a new rhyme
but i don't really
have the time
so what the fuck
can't hear the chime

i don't think...
i'm holier than thou
and i know...
to me you're so kind now
i just wish...
for us there was more time
but i know...
the thoughts that are sublime
do you not...
see what it is i mean
when i look...
'n' know that it would seem...
that there is...
something hidden in dream...
but i look...
and can't find what i mean...
i wish i knew, i really do...
but i can't find it today!!
wake up! what the hell is wrong
i don't know
but i've searched for so damn long
cannot see...
what it is i want
when i look...
it hides, but still it taunts
can you find...
the meaning of this rhyme
do you know...
what i say each time
when i think...
and meaning do not find
but you still...
seem to think all's fine...
maybe soon...
i'll find what's in this rhyme
i wish i knew, i really do...
but i can't find it today!!!
WAKE UP!!! what the hell's going on
i don't know...
what the hell is wrong
but i look...
i look but do not see
wish i did...
i wish eturn-a-lly!!!